Monday, December 19, 2011
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Esta herida nunca sanará y ha logrado convencerme de alejarme para olvidar..
Siento, el aire abandonar mi cuerpo, mi alma.
Siento cerca el final, pierdo la memoria.
Lo intentamos muchas veces ya
esta herida nunca sanará
y ha logrado convencerme
de alejarme para olvidar.
No me robes más el aire
no tengo suficiente para amar
siento como mis latidos se detienen.
No te acerques más, deliro,
vacío dejaste el corazón
y pierdo todo al alejarme
pero encuentro mi respiración.
Siento, el aire regresar
vida y algo mas
y siento un lento suspirar
que borra mi memoria.
El dolor pronto pasará
y vencido el miedo quedará
encuentra fuerza en tu silencio
y me alejo para olvidar.
No me robes más el aire
no tengo suficiente para amar
siento como mis latidos se detienen
No te acerques más, deliro,
vacio dejaste el corazón
y pierdo todo al alejarme
pero encuentro mi respiración.
No me robes más el aire
no tengo suficiente para amar
siento como mis latidos se detienen
No te acerques más, deliro,
vacío dejaste el corazón
y pierdo todo al alejarme
pero encuentro mi respiración
pero encuentro mi respiración
encuentro mi respiración
encuentro mi respiración.
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Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Sunday, December 11, 2011
The truth is..
Things would be so different if I knew you would be there at the end, but instead I'm certain that you won't...
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Stuck on the pavement
Ok, so, here I am, one more sleepless night. I've been thinking about this whole experience all day, interesting situation. I know there'll come a day when I'll be finally over him, but for now I'll name this chapter of my life "Stuck on the pavement". Last couple of months have been kind of numbing, I feel as if I were sort of deaf, I can't hear anything anybody says, I've been distracted, not interested and even fake, I smile when I'm with somebody, but I don't really mean it, I just walk around just because I have to, go out, talk without being really sure of what I'm saying, that sort of surreal feeling all over the place.
I know this seems like kind of a video blog, but the only way I've come around to being able to express what I'm feeling is music, and so I use it, I promise I'll try to write a little bit more though, and tell you a little about myself.
I know this seems like kind of a video blog, but the only way I've come around to being able to express what I'm feeling is music, and so I use it, I promise I'll try to write a little bit more though, and tell you a little about myself.
If you're a bird, I'm a bird...
I watched The Notebook for the 100th time last night, and it still amazes me all the love you can find in that movie.
Friday, December 2, 2011
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Friday, November 25, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
It hurts to let go..
A couple of days ago, I found the image above while reviewing an old memory stick, it made me reminisce of happier days when I had no clue how deep something can hurt, how painful it is to lose the only person you've ever loved, times when I was happy by his side and nothing could ever hurt me, because he was there to protect me and make me feel safe. But now my inner voice is telling me it's time to let go, it's time to accept the fact that he will never be mine again and everything I ever dreamed of now vanishes in front of me and seems like an impossible wish that will never come true.
I wish getting over somebody was as easy as deleting a file or erasing something written on pencil, instead it feels as if he were tattooed on my skin, as if he owns my soul and he refuses to let it go.
All the laughter and the tears we ever shared together keeps playing on an infinite loop through my head, over and over again, I go through the whole thing in my head trying to figure out how things would be now if I hadn't done this, or if I had done that.. it's all a giant blur that has been keeping me awake every night for about a month and still I have nothing figured out so far.
I guess I'll never know if life in his arms would have been as wonderful as it seemed in the prettiest of my dreams..
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset..
"Boston"
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... she said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
She said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain...
Oh yeah and I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah...
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Boston...
No one knows my name.
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... she said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
She said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain...
Oh yeah and I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah...
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Boston...
No one knows my name.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Out of breath I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again..
I feel so empty without him, there's now an empty space in the place where I used to live and now I just walk around half alive..
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again...
2am, where do I begin
Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed
I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again
Too afraid, to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me till I fall asleep
I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again
Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me
And the lonely...
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again..
Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed
I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again
Too afraid, to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me till I fall asleep
I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again
Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me
And the lonely...
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again..
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Today...
Today I choose to be happy. Today I understand I'm free, you set me free to accept whatever life brings. Today I understand you left, you're gone, and I can't change that, but I can greet the world with arms wide open to embrace new opportunities.
Today I love you, but I'm not sad..
Today I love you, but I'm not sad..
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
it hurts...
It hurts to know you're with somebody else, but it hurts the most to imagine and play movies in my head of you sharing a life with her, holding her, laughing with her. You say you're not happy, you say you love me, but you demonstrate something completely different.
You're sleeping with her, wake up to see her face, come home to her after work, and still you have the guts to tell me you love me, you tell me you can't get over me.. and you lied to me.. kept her on the side while you made me believe you had always loved me and we would be happy together...
You really killed it....
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Someone like you...
"Someone Like You"
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday it was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over, yeah.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday it was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over, yeah.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
it all makes sense
Now I know why people kept dreaming I died.. I might not be really dead, but it feels that way inside...
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