party on

love?

never again

just not today

I'll be alright, just not tonight...

i don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

wrap it up

i need a doctor to bring me back to life

Tough week.. Had lots of work and gym activity, my brain doesn't seem to stop revolving even for a second...


I talked to him for about 1 hour before he disappeared into thin air once again... 
Why do I keep holding on to a non existing story?... why do I keep trembling every time he comes around?...


All I ask for is numbness for my heart and soul, a perfect shield that surrounds me and keeps me away from him and all the sadness that he leaves after him.. every time he goes away... 

...

Today is one of those days I can't stop thinking about him, wishing he was here, wishing things would be like they used to be.

On the other hand, I know I'm probably better off, I keep trying to convince myself about that, hard thing to do. 

I spent the whole day working, crazy busy the whole time, still, I couldn't stop thinking about him, what is he doing? is he ok? is he happy?

How do you get over the only person you've ever wanted to grow old with?